A day in the Life of Me

and so he asked….

So I just got back from my trip to MI last night, and I screwed up my knee getting on the plane, my last flight and now it’s all swollen and sore, but good news is I have an interview on tomorrow at 9 am for a housekeeping job. It’s fantastic hours so I really hope I get it, but am worried that my knee is going to cause an issue. In other news! My boyfriend and I are super japanophiles, and we celebrate valentines days the way they do in Japan, where on Valentines day the girls give boys chocolates and a month later called white day the boys reciprocate if they like the girl. So, today is white day and I got my gifts, a new set of measuring cups, and nesting bowls with lids, and then a surprise came, my boyfriend sends my cat in to me with a ring tied to her collar and then comes in and gets down on one knee and asks me to be his wife.

guys help

violinfetishist:

I’m trying to remember the name of this Japanese confectionery that was like….

It looks like two tiny little pancakes squished together and it has red bean paste in it.

It isn’t a manju bun, and it’s not daifuku…it can be sold in packages on shelves in the bread aisle and stuff, but I only see them in Asian specialty stores.

AND IT’S DRIVING ME CRAZY BECAUSE I CAN’T REMEMBER WHAT THEY’RE CALLED HELP. ;______; 

Hi there was browsing around and came across your question (couldn’t find another way to answer so hopefully you see this) it’s called dorayaki and if its fish shaped its taiyaki

(Source: the-maggie-pie)

Lost the battle, but the war isn’t over yet

The past couple days, I’ve fallen so easily into the mold…the societal mold, and not just that, but the mold of the old me, the old me who was unhappy with a toxic heart and soul. It’s so easy to fall back into the rhythm of hating..and cynicism and just being nasty. It isn’t easy to let your heart be open and to not jump on every little of negativity and to let it overcome me. It has been so so easy for every little frustration get to me and make me angry and say hateful things, and when I feel this way my heart feels rushed and unsettled, I don’t want to feel that way. So I am going to start now, not waiting for a new day, but now, to get back up and try again to not let my heart get so full of hatred. It’s funny how easily negativity can seep in and create a gap to let more in, and how hard it is to let positivity grow and fill in the hole. ahh I know I am beginning to ramble on now, but to the point, I’ve fallen off my own wagon, my wagon to self freedom and self quiet and self peace, but the wagon stopped and is waiting for me and I am going to get up and climb back on and try even more to bring peace into my heart and into my life. ~Much Love and Peace~

dreadlocks

Anyone in MI or in PA know where I could go to get a full set of 40 double ended dreadlock falls installed?? I would really appreciate it. I have had mine for a while and have been dying to get them put in.

birdieblog asked: hello, hows your day been?

Fantastic! And yours??

meltdown

Today, I broke…I had a major anxiety meltdown, and looking back at it, brings me close to a panic attack (so naturally my brain makes me remember all DAY) and it was over something totally stupid. But it has me worried beyond belief. I put in a job app, and they guy calls me today for an interview and I can’t right now because I’m in MI he says okay call me when you get back and remind me and I say okay and he gives me his number…I’m driving….and it isn’t the number he called with. So I freak out I try to get grandma to write it down and I make the poor guy repeat himself like 5 times..and I snapped at grandma because she wasn’t writing what I told her all on the phone with guy who will interview me…how professional….I think I totally blew it now. And he was getting very impatient at having to repeat it so many times. And then me losing my cool….*sigh* I really want+need this job…and I may have totally blew it. I feel like sobbing. I wish I could redo the whole thing and just not answer the phone and then call him after I get in the house. I am still beating myself up about it and it nearly sending me into hyperventilating over it. I am Virgo and I need control and when I don’t have it…I really lose it even more. It isn’t a good thing, and I am trying to work on this part of me, I should probably see a shrink since I have such terrible anxiety to begin with. *sigh* pray for me, light candles, sending positive energy, anything, to help me feel better and calmer and to help me get this job! ~much love and peace always~

finding solid ground

As much as I was starting to dread my little vacation back to MI it’s helping me find some clarity. And to come to terms with things about myself. I’m using this time to start new habits and one is for inner reflection and learning to be okay with who I am instead of trying to live up to someone else’s idea of who I am. I am a free spirit, and I do what makes me happy even if some people disagree with this. This is just me, and I can’t change that about myself, every time I try, I am filled with so much desperation, need, depression..so so so much hurt. I am finding solid ground. I am feeling grounded…in a great way. Every bird needs to land at some point, and I am landing now. I am finding myself and it feels sooo ooey gooey good. I am loving this transformation and blossoming of myself. I still feel scared and open and raw, change is scary, very scary, especially when that change is learning to be yourself, and to let it be open for every eye to see and scrutinize. Sometimes, it’s easy to be what everyone else wants you to be, to fill into the mold like a security blanket and to never let anyone know who you really are, to hold your true self close like a baby and coddle. But it’s time to let the baby grow and be filled with me, to fill my heart to the brim with inner happiness and calm and let my true colors show, to show how beautiful I am in my own way. And for me… it’s scary…but healing all the same. I can’t wait to see where this new journey takes me, and how I will blossom and bloom. ~Much Peace and Love~ 

Falling in Love through a photograph

I have been falling madly and deeply in love with the State of Washington. I have never been there, and have only seen photos but I am soooo in love with it. I want to move there one day and raise my hippie children there. :) Preferably in the town of Bellingham. I hope my dreams will come true. ~Much Peace and Love Always~